Heartbroken and Alone: Losing My Best Friend and Boyfriend

I forgot to mention I’m an infj with bpd, that’s the one in particular haha.

I understand where you're coming from, on top of struggling to understand myself it's more than difficult to try and understand others. Apart from the friends I've got, who I've had near enough my whole life and actively seek out trying to spend time with me, I haven't made any new ones in years. Losing someone that close to you is also incredibly difficult, but by no means does it make you any less than you are. Feel free to shoot a message if you need someone to chat to and don't forget we're all gonna make it