I’m so frustrated. I was really looking forward to this summer, more determined than ever to actually do the things I said I would do during previous but never did. I wanted to draw, go swimming every day, hang out with friends. But I’m almost halfway through the summer and I’ve done literally none of it. I had to move from the school dorms back into my house for the summer, which I think worsened my depression. I was so happy living in the dorms, working on my animation class, and hanging out with my friends every single day. Now I feel so stuck and isolated. I’m back to being subject to my mom’s emotionally abusive and narcissistic tendencies, including her nearly disowning me and saying she would “sign me away” several days ago. We also have like 30 guests staying at our house for 3 weeks, who absolutely love my mom. It makes me sick to see them and my mom being so affectionate with each other when she is so abusive to me. I hide in my room like 22 hours a day because I feel unsafe or uncomfortable in my own house now. Now I wish I just did summer school so I wouldn’t even have a summer.