Fighting Depression: My Struggle to Keep Going

I’ve rewinded in my depression journey a lot. No job again, spend most days crying wishing i were advanced and independent in life. Instead i fight with my parents every other day and can’t stand to look in the mirror and have anxiety about my future or anger about everything. It’s been about 2+ years since i’ve had depression. I can’t believe i’ve progressed so slowly… i hate that depression makes time stop. I hate that it makes you hate yourself and your life. I hate that people don’t understand it or want to understand it. I hate that it’s still a stigma. I hate that i’m frustrated on how to beat it and continue to battle it every single day. I’m running out of options on how to keep myself from breaking down… a few months ago i hit rock bottom and considered a psych ward. I just pray i don’t keep going backwards. It’s so hard when i feel like it’s just me battling this thing. Wish me luck guys.