Hold tight. When your down, the only way to go is up. Maybe try to talk to a professional like a counselor or therapist or such. Seek help

"it's ok to not be ok but it's not ok to stay that way"

If you didn’t intend to trigger him, then you did nothing wrong. And the fact you feel remorseful for it seems to indicate this. I was suicidal till age 18 and I know that nothing any of us says can heal you but I want you to know that i’m proud of you for still being here. I hope you still around- just one more time. And tomorrow we can try again. You can always end it all tomorrow, next week, in a few years, so we may as well just stick around till tomorrow just in case something changes, just to eat our favorite snack one more time or watch our favorite movie for the last time. I hope to see you here tomorrow. I’m rooting for you, friend.