Feeling Stuck and Overwhelmed

I don't know what's going on, I wake up wanting to cry. I don't want to move or get out of bed. I got ghosted by this dude 2 days ago but I've only known him for a week so it usually doesn't have big impact on me. I usually get bored of relationships fast when I don't want to and lose feelings quickly so it's not really a problem breaking up. but this one was just too much on me. it's almost like I need physical attention at all times to function or to love someone. my self harm thoughts are very strong and I'm talking to my friend about it, but even he can't cheer me up and he usually does. I'm kind of just stuck at this point