Feeling like a burden and wanting to give up

I just wanted to express how I have been feeling! I just feel like I am a burden to everyone around me, and I feel like I'm a lot for people. one person said to me that I'm a risk to them. Also I'm being having alot of meltdowns, sensory overload, having a number of psychotic episodes and people telling me that I'm acting like a child, need to get over it, calm down and they being telling me to stop throwing a tantrum. I find it hard to talk to people around me. nothing against males, but I always feel talking to females because of male trauma. I just feel so alone in this world and want to give up. I had goals, but people have taken it away from me. I'm really sorry to be a burden, people. really am.