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on holidays (especially more major ones), do you ever feel like you should be happier than you are cause it’s a holiday? like you’re wasting it, you’re not grateful, you should be happier right now, etc.? because i do. it’s thanksgiving today, and some more of my family is here (more than usual), and i feel like i should be happier to be spending time with them. but i just got pretty depressed fairly suddenly and picked at my face for a while and no one said anything or seemed to notice i was gone or anything. and like it’s not a big deal. and i don’t even think that’s mostly why i’m depressed. i don’t know why i am, though. sometimes i feel like i’m an annoyance to my family and stuff. kinda like i’m a burden. not just cause of my disorders and stuff, but just because of the person that i am. i feel like i’m so annoying and hypocritical and so much more. in like a bunch of ways. and i don’t even really know what my redeeming qualities are. i guess my self-esteem is pretty low right now. sometimes i wonder if i get upset for seemingly no reason/not much of a reason as like a self-destructive thing. idk. i hate how sensitive i am in like so many ways. it is awful. i’m not even excited for thanksgiving dinner. i just kinda feel like i’m a nuisance. the only thing i’m kinda looking forward to in the near future is being alone and i feel so bad about that. i just want to be home alone and watch youtube on the tv and do art or something. and i feel guilty about that. i should be happy and grateful about spending time with my grandparents and my sibling especially because i don’t see them that often cause they don’t live near me. and they’re not mean generally or anything like that. so why don’t i want to be near them right now?? ugh. i think part of my problem of not really wanting to fully be with my family is my adhd maybe? i think my short attention span and the fact that i generally need more stuff going on to be engaged in anything than most people, plus other things that aren’t necessarily caused by adhd might contribute to what i’m describing. i hope i’m making sense. i like holidays. i think. but i also think that i like always accidentally put subconscious pressure and expectations on myself to enjoy it fully which might not even be possible. i don’t know why i’m making this post. i don’t know what i want people to say. i guess i just wanted to vent? idk. thanks for reading i guess.
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I feel the same way with holidays I know that one of the things that comes with adhd or add is not liking being around alot of people it's difficult for us to be in big groups and we get bored easily I have always struggled with feeling happy on holidays until the actual family or friends interaction part if that makes sense so your not alone and how you feel is valid some times our mental/physical health or disorders make thing hard for us that are easy for "normal" people and it's ok because we are all unique you are cared about and I'm always here if you need to talk or anything
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@Harley100719 thank you!!
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@canadaisntreal no problem
I am feeling exactly the same way right now. The only thing that really brings me joy or happiness is my partner and we’re a bit long distance so it’s been hard. I hope you’re able to find peace this holiday season, the holidays are always so hard for a multitude of reasons. I just wish I felt happy too, and comfortable around my family. If you ever want to talk my DMs are open 💕
@bunbunii thank you !!!
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