Feeling Alone and Overwhelmed

My boyfriend and I spend a lot of time together. He will spend days at me and my parents house and I’ll send some days at his place. When our schedules are messed up and we can’t be together it’s very rough on me. I just sob and scream for hours. And now I’m starting TMS treatments for my depression so I’ll see him even less. So trust me I know the feeling. You aren’t alone. The best thing I can tell you is that just because you aren’t together doesn’t mean you aren’t together. As in just because he’s not there you are still in a relationship and committed to eachother. It’s been very hard for me to believe but it gets better with time you just have to work on it and build yourself up.

Look up attachment styles it will help you to better understand yourself for example I am anxious avoident. And I used to go through the same thing. There are ways to fix it but it takes time and self care.

try talking to your therapist about coping skills for codependency, and maybe talk to your psychiatrist about any meds that can calm you while he's gone until you learn some coping skills , like maybe low dose klonopin or valium.