Feeling Alone and Disconnected: Needing Genuine Connections

Another day where my brain decided to think of all the sadness in my life. I really do have some good things going for me that I am beyond blessed to have. The sadness consists of not having actual friends (besides my best friend that's my partner) To me a friend communicates regularly, not yearly or annually or random comments on social media. The sadness also comes from not having any connection with my family besides my mom. My own brother states how important family is but to him I barely exist. To me a family should consist of people that are supportive, accepting and communicate with you regularly. My sadness sometimes comes from my disabilities because I used to be able to do so much and now I am extremely limited. I do have coping skills that somewhat help me get through these moments but lately it hasn't been helping me much. I seek friendship because most of my days are spent in solitude. My partner has worked a lot since I became disabled so when they are home they are usually doing their own things. I am not trying to be a pity party or expect many to actually care. I love the three people in my life that are all I truly have in this life. Sadly my own kid isn't counted as he has become a stranger to me and barely speaks to me even living in the same home. He has also become extremely disrespectful and selfish....things I tried to teach him not to be. Ugh I don't even know anymore!