Battling Anxiety and Depression: The Craving for Alcohol

I hate when my anxiety turns into depression. that's when the drinking craving/urge kicks in. I don't want it... but I can feel it coming. I hate battling with my emotions. being so anxious that it literally pulls all of the energy you have, draining you making you so tired so you sulk into yourself the only only thing the body wants is a drink 🍻 but you know what the bottom of the glass feels like.. so you try your best. the only thing that feels closer to relief beside death, is sleep. I just want to sleep. waking up is God awful. but, I keep doing it everyday. it's such a tiring cycle.