I have also had my permit for a long time (almost 7 years) and I also have really bad anxiety when I take tests.. which is why I take online courses for college. I had my first attempt for my license yesterday and failed with the equipment because I got so frazzled. I didn't even get to go on the road with the instructor. I have my next attempt on Saturday, but I am still so nervous that I will fail (again). So I understand where you're coming from and am rooting for you with every fiber of my being.