Struggling with Depression and Hardship

just really depressed these days. Ever since Covid closed the store I managed and then to move and relocate to find myself loosing everything I own during hurricane Ida and have to relocate again living from one house to another finding that family doesn't want tohelp get you off the streets and when you find that will lets you move to find a couple of months later they want you to leave. Went from a very independent strong person to one that has to depend on others and depending on the government funding to be able to survive is just about got me to the place of wanting to throw the towel in. So tired of crying and walking on egg shells hoping not to get folks upset and throw me out again. I stay a nervous wreck. People tell me God has a plan and things you go through are learning lessons. So wish I knew what the plan . Oh and let's don't forget about God want put anymore on you than you can handle. Truth is I do believe all that but these day I don't see much hope.