Struggling to Make Ends Meet

i havent been on here in a while because im completely depressed. i feel worthless, a waste of space. my life is so messed up right now and no matter how hard i try i just cant fix it. tomorrow my daughter and i are gonna get locked out our hotel room with no where to go because things like weather effects our pay. i just want to go outside and scream as loud as i can. my heart is beating so hard i can hear it beat. my chest hurts and i can hardly breathe. ive been posting to sell as much of my personal stuff as i can to try to make this rent and failed!!! selling my clothes, shoes, kitchen appliances, board games, wall decor ect.... still failed. i havent slept good in three days/nights. it seems like so many people want a front seat to your misery yet offer no help or solutions, a kind word. it makes me sick to my stomach. im a human being. i have feelings. they should matter. no insurance, cant go to the doctor, i just feel like a failure. i dont know what else to do. theres no rental assistance for ppl who stay in hotels. cant donate plasma because im considered homeless, even though i can recieve mail here. i started a second job but havent got paid yet. i cant get a loan. some of us are really out here trying our very best only to fall short with no real help. i appreciate the prayers ... dont get me wrong. i just dont see the point sometimes. im in a very dark space right now and i just need a real break, rest and real help or a little compassion. anyone can be in my position, why do people judge???? i dont do people dirty or do wrong things. im kind to every one. feeling like this makes lonely and feeling lonely so much worse.