Hey, the fact that you don’t see other people’s difficulties doesn’t mean they don’t have any. I can relate to what you wrote, it’s hard for me to fit as well. What sometimes works for me is to keep up-fake it until you make it.

Hey, it sounds like you’re working very hard and doing your best. I really relate to not being able to keep up. I was an honors student but struggling because I was often either depressed or burnt out or just couldn’t do it. I remember not doing much homework and everyday telling myself “I’ll try harder, do better tomorrow.” Please don’t feel guilty. It’s hard to deny that you’re not keeping up at school, but you don’t need to beat yourself up. The reality is that regardless of situation there are so many students who struggle and can’t do well in school. They aren’t any lesser humans for that. Try to lessen your work load and your standards for how well you do. Also definitely seek out whatever resources you can get, like if you have a school psychologist, if you can talk to your teachers/professors. If you’re still in high school having your parent email teachers who are understanding, you might be able to get out of some missed assignments. It’s very clear that you do care. People assume that when students are not doing well it’s because they don’t try hard enough, and I always used to internalize that too. Now that I’m out of that I realize that I always did care and worked really hard. I’m sure it’s the same for you. But part of it is it can be scary to feel like you can’t work towards something you care about. I wish you the best in your journey ❤️