Feeling like I don't matter

“Making your mark on the world is hard. If it were easy, everybody would do it. But it’s not. It takes patience, it takes commitment, and it comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won’t. It’s whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere.” -Barack Obama

Your family judges you harshly, and you've learned to judge yourself the same way. You haven't failed because of the position you're stuck in; you're dealing with difficult problems the likes of which they apparently can't understand. It is more difficult to achieve the same things, but do they count more? Don't worry about what your uncle's son thinks, or anyone else in your family. You can choose your family, if you want, to be people who support you rather than chastise you for things they don't understand.

My friending, i do the same thing with myself/family... still currently live with my parents and family... I'm in my early 20s and I've had a few jobs, but nothing that stuck... i feel like I'm a looser and that I'm not worth anything... But... i have faith in the harvest... things *will* get better, at some point... but, while earth remains and the death of sin still has a hold, things will only get worse... the harvest is ready... but how few the farmhands are... My friend, you are worth something to God and Christ.. they love you more than anyone else could ever love you... we are so small and fragile... it doesn't matter what you did... it's about the Father looking down and saying "that's my kid"