Living with Self Harm: My Constant Battle

I’ve been living with SH for 9 years, I started before I even knew anything about it or what I was doing. I was 13 and just wanted to feel in control of something in my life. I didn’t know that self harm was a continuous and constant battle that I would fight for the rest of my life. That being said I’m 21 now and have gone through one attempt, multiple medications and therapists, and too many relapses to count. Everyone constantly tells you it will get better but that’s just not true, you will get stronger, you will learn how to fight it, you will find a way or a reason to hold yourself back but it will always be there in the back of your mind. The best example I’ve heard from a doctor is that Self Harm is an addiction, there is no such thing as a recovered alcoholic, and the same is true with this. I just joined so that I could feel a little less alone and get some stuff off my chest