Struggling with BPD and Love in the Workplace

Hi 👋 I was diagnosed last June and I had no idea what bpd was until my therapist told me about it. I need advice about love. I’m not trying to search for it, but I cannot help myself and think that someone is cute. Especially, when it comes to my coworkers who I have to see daily 😭 it’s sooooo exhausting feeling these emotions and not being able to embrace them. How do I remove these thoughts out of my head? Looking back now, I realized that I have always tried to resist the urge to embrace these emotions. Especially with straight men, but these emotions are so strong and I just want to let them loose. How do I prevent this? Im going To ruin my work life. I almost did it at my last job.