Heartbreak and Betrayal: My Story

(just need to vent somewhere.) i think when i had gotten into a relationship i had allowed myself to depend on them. i’d say i didn’t want help but i let myself fall blindly. two years of us and within that i think i had lost where i started and he ended in my head. i had found someone who listened and heard my cry’s. when i had gotten sick and had gotten biopsy’s back to back. had a cancer scare. he was there. but little did i know he had a secret account filled with women. he was giving them the attention i had cried and begged for. i had to fight for the relationship to truly work. i had given everything. and there were good memories and times within this relationship. but it is upsetting to know i had been the problem or that’s what i had done. i had thought i was no longer enough in his eyes. i was so desperate to keep him there. had tried everything but when i had tried to see if he’d fight for us.. he completely left. didn’t look back and so easily left. he had other people and i know i shouldn’t miss him or love him so much still, but at one point that was my person. my other half or so i had thought. i thought this once someone truly saw my flaws and didn’t leave me behind because of them. This is all still fresh and in my head it feels like this pain won’t leave.. but i know i just need to feel this pain. to let the emotions pass by and to not sit in this sadness and let that be what drives me.