Dealing with Resentment and Anger Towards Men

Everyone always talks about how people with bpd are abusive but honestly I think the complete opposite. When it comes to myself I have been done so wrong in my life and it makes me a angry person. I don’t care what anyone says I am the victim. My life has basically been taken away from me. After so much of abuse handed to me I just don’t care anymore. Especially when it comes to men. Men have single handedly taken my life away. I’m 22 on disability not able to accomplish any dreams I had for myself or even function normally. I have developed this resentment towards men and I don’t know how to fix it. All I have seen in my life is men beating women, cheating on them and just emotionally abusing them. I’m not going to lie the first time I got cheated on changed my whole entire life. It was 5 years ago and I cry about it DAILY still. It’s not fair. I have thought about dating women because of my hatred towards men. I am the victim and I didn’t deserve this. My anger and abuse comes out when I am being treated badly and honestly it should. I sometimes think I don’t need medication and I just need people to not treat me badly and actually be empathetic. I wouldn’t be so mentally ill if people actually treated me right and gaf. Sorry if this offends any men on here but I need advice on how to deal with my resentment and anger towards them.