Imagining Loved Ones Hurting Me

I also am one of those people who watches disturbing media as a form of self-harm. Like I have no idea how to get into the dark web and I’m happy I don’t. Im scared I would be one of those people funding snuff films just to feed my self-harm

I get these thoughts during panic attacks

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I do have intrusive thoughts of a different nature. Rather me dying, I think about them dying. What if my dog got hit by a car? What if my dad drops dead from a heart attack? What if these people and animals I love are suddenly taken from me after I have lost so much to illness? It is easy to start to spiral. My brain is literally afraid all the time, but I combat it by grounding myself. For all the intrusive thoughts, I counter it with something positive. Even something as simple as saying to myself you are safe you are safe can help push back on those intrusive thoughts.

You know what this gives me comfort. I always thought there was something wrong with me for that