Admitting myself for in-patient help soon

It sounds like things are really hard right now. If you aren’t going to kill yourself in the next few days, you might want to consider intensive outpatient or partial hospitalization. This option would still work if you are having bad suicidal ideation but aren’t going to go through with it. As far as all the other stuff take it one step at a time. You don’t have to decide that you want to quit right now. Get a medical leave letter. Decide that once you are feeling a little better. Honestly having the structure, things to do, and spending time with people is usually good for you and quitting jobs can make a lot of people much worse. As far as your mom, tell her that you will keep her in the loop and to wait until she hears from you because the constant calls are stressful while you are trying to get ready. You appreciate what she is doing for you, but right now you need some space to get ready. And telling everyone else can wait until you are ready. Not everything else needs to happen today. Tell them when you are ready and have the capacity. Or don’t tell them— up to you. Your medical info is yours to keep or share and no one is entitled to know anything that you don’t feel like telling (in a particular moment or just in general). And for the housing tell her that you will work on it as soon as you are feeling a bit better. You appreciate everything that she has done for you, and you want to make sure that both of you can stay healthy. You might be able to find a social worker to help you find an apartment to rent. Or if you can’t afford that subsidized housing. Please try to take a breath during this stressful time and do some self care. Make a cup of tea or go for a walk or do something nice for yourself. Also consider doing a short grousing exercise. There are a bunch online if you google that. But also I just want to validate how hard this is. Things are never easy during low moments. I have definitely been there. Try to take care of yourself. You got this and things will get better Also feel free to reach out to me. Happy to chat.