It might be a good idea to do the outpatient program if your depression is so bad. I’m in a situation where I went on leave because my anxiety and depression were so bad. It helped my mental health overall. Plus… a trip to California, with all the sun, might help you out.

Sometimes it’s ok not to know the answer sometimes we have to take thing’s minute by minute then hour by hour then day by day also you cannot heal in a environment that caused you harm ultimately the choice is what’s blessed for you nobody can make that decision just you if you need to talk feel free to private message me like I say I’m only a hop skip n a click away . Keep ur head up❤️

Maybe try to research on what jobs are in that area. Maybe, as an example, you would go to community College and get associates in for being a florist. But of you don't have the money I'd look for jobs that don't need a specific degree; like I know some bakerys that you won't need a degree for. But I'd really think about if you'd be happy with that job and you would enjoy doing it. There are also job quizzes and tests to find a job for you. That would be my first priority. I don't know if that was what your looking for but I'd hope this helped!

It sounds like you need a break! This was always a huge trigger for me that feeling of being overwhelmed. I think you could benefit from outpatient therapy and take the break that you need to care for yourself. If you are able to stay with your aunt then that’s even better and can take a break from work as well. ❤️ if you are not sure, there are other options! Therapy, meditation, remove some stressors from your life etc. It’s okay to not know what you want too:) you can sit down and journal and think about what would make you feel better and what your body and mind are telling you that it needs! Good luck!