Damn...4 marriages? I'm 44 and never been loved enough to be married once! My boyfriend says he wants to marry me, but I don't know if it will ever happen....

❤️❤️❤️ sorry to hear,I've honestly felt that way a few times in my life..I'm 51 and have tried suicide 3 times but glad I'm here because I can maybe help people through my experiences. Although I don't have the right answers.

Making that first appointment is the hardest thing and you did it! Hang in there. Go on and scream. That’s what cars are for, right? I’m with you.

I’m glad you have your appointment soon! I’m pretty young but the jobs I’ve worked I’ve met many people who always feel the same way. I think what you are going through is actually a normal part of growing up and maturing. I don’t know you or your life so I’m sure there are moments that could have been dealt with better as we all have made mistakes. However I can assure you that your adult life is not a complete screw up. Also your ONLY 48! You have so much more to offer this world and yourself! You’ve already recognized that you need help, guidance, or maybe even medication. You got this!!

❤️❤️❤️amen @medically_challlenged What you said I agree with..you're young and I'm glad you finally have an appointment. Picking your psychiatrist is hard.. it took me like four appointments to figure out that I liked the person and some you can connect with quite easily depends on how empathetic they are..not pathetic but empathic meaning they can sense your moods and put you at ease..good luck! Hugs to you

I’m sorry you are going through so much anguish. I’m here if I can do anything to help you. I have been through a very rough 2 years with the past 8 months being the worst.