What don't they get?

more than 2 people trying to give me, 1 person, constructive criticism feels like an attack. i’m all for feedback, but I don’t need a bunch of people jumping on top of me.

"I did everything you asked, why are you still so bad at everything", man I am trying I swear 😭

That it doesn't just "go away" with medication and therapy overnight. And that coping mechanisms only help to a certain degree at times.

They don’t get that every single day is a struggle. That you don’t want to cancel plans. You don’t want to miss events. You dread having to make those calls. But you are trying to survive.

They don't get how much personal time managing a health condition can sometimes take.🙏

I don't actually want to get better, I'm ruining my life day by day.

How hard it is. That I don't want this but it's what I have and I want it noted. That I'm trying my best to function but I'm just faking it. It's all a disguise. And what's going on in my body is NOT normal.

That I'm not lazy, things are just so much harder for me to do.

That I work despite being in pain because if I don't, I'm fired. But at home, I need to rest and heal not continue to work after getting off work despite the pain I'm in.

That I be trying my best to keep up when a pearson don't understand that I don't want to upset them

Everything about us

ANY of it... My list consists of; celiac disease, fibromyalgia, mitral valve prolapse/left atrium regurgitation, petit mal seizures, costochondritis, gerd, cancer twice, hysterectomy and gall bladder removed, severe anemia, ibs, h. Pylori(comes and goes), and many other physical and mental things. You get the idea. And, apparently it's ALLLLL in my head... Even with more than one drs diagnosis. 😮‍💨🤷🏽‍♀️

that i can’t just make it go away and if it’s hard for u to deal with me being mentally ill, imagine how hard it is for ME to live like this. people act like i’m burdening them and like i’m choosing this, why would i ever want this? why would anyone EVER want this?

how much I miss my healthy life more than they miss the things that they could do with me.

how difficult basic tasks are for me. walking, eating, drinking water, talking, just existing is a battle everyday. im always in extreme pain. it gets so bad sometimes i cant walk, close my jaw, or hold things in my hands. sometimes i lose control fo limbs bc my muscles spasm or go numb. i get made fun of and degraded a lot for it, and its very difficult.

How hard i work to actually get through a day. I have been told this is suicidal even though i just want to take a break. I'm sooooo exhausted... How difficult i find communication even though they think my communication skills are amazing.

That I can't eat like a normal person anymore because of my chronic illness. And it sucks.

Just how much i overfeel, normal feelings for me intensify a crazy amount

That even though they stop caring after a while, I'm still stuck in the loop.

That I'm not pretending, that I can't just stop doing it, that there's a difference between anxiety before a first date and the kind that makes me not leave my house.

How hard I work to try and act "normal" and do what everyone expects me to do

I don't want to be an inconvenience for the rest of my life

That they haven't helped me find out what is actually causing my problems. All of that work I had to do on my own.

That I feel bad all the time even when it looks like I’m doing well

That sometimes just existing is all I can do.

So many people don’t get how I can be fine one minute then severely fatigued and dizzy the next

Why I do things the way I do them and why I do them that way

The struggles to balance my physical health, mental health, and emotional being, while having to study full-time and living by myself at a country away from home

How hard it is for me to even get out of bed every day.

Why I am always sad. Why and how the drug I do is the only thing that provides me any relief.

Never NOT in pain. And when I say I can't do something, it means I literally cannot; not just choosing not to.

Understanding of autism and how to approach it

People don't tend to get, and can even dislike me for not being as "able" as them. I have the same amount of ability, it just looks different if you can even see it! As much as that can shove their emotions down to complete a task, I have to do even more work to face those emotions while trying to complete that same task. It's unavoidable for me, but not for them. Honestly, they would only ever get it if they went through a similar level of trauma that forced them to be as aware and intentional about the smallest things as I am. Then they'll understand what a "different" brain is like to live with, all the bells an whistles included. What I don't get is how people can choose to stay ignorant of so many things outside and inside themselves... 🙄

That even though I'm not achieving as much as fast as most others, I'm still trying and doing the best I can. I'm not slacking off or "using it as an excuse." Mental illness is real and debilitating.

That I want to do what they can do (and sometimes could but shouldn't)

The fact that it upsets me just as much as it upsets them that I can’t meet them everyday at the drop of a hat 🙃

My family doesn’t get it because they see me Lucky normal. They can’t see what’s going on inside so they have no clue plus they don’t talk to me so they don’t know what I’ve been through or should I say I don’t talk to them because they don’t have any compassion.

The struggle. The fatigue. The pain. The way I feel when I can't complete basic tasks by myself.

How hard we work to change and become better... while having relapses in the midst of it all. It's not easy, we fight every day.

How misogynistic the healthcare system is. "Oh you can't have this medication as it's harmful to this hypothetical baby even though *you* as a real person is in so much pain. Go on birth control which causes other issues, is painful as we don't offer local anesthesia for IUDS but we do for vasectomies, or you can't be on birth control because of other medication you are on/health conditions you have. Oh you want to abstain from sex? Nah sorry even though that's 100% foolproof you are a young women so obviously you're promiscuous and want sex so you *have* to be on birth control as well as use condoms for this pain medication." ~CYCLE REPEATS~

The sadness that comes with not being able to walk without a cane at a young age :(

That there are some things that I can't just turn off in my head. And that it isn't them, that it's me.

Everything

The effort that it takes to just get through the day and I look fine but I'm barely keeping my head above the water, I am always exhausted but making sure I have what makes it worth it closest to me and those who don't care to understand can go 💕

They don't get how much effort I put in and I think so much more ahead, but never truly listens!!

just because i am not visibly hurting does not mean i'm not. also it being psychosomatic does not discount its validity?!

How mental health and autism affects physical well-being and pain levels.

How hard it is to do normal daily things and how hard it is to go to work through the pain and symptoms.

The pain of everything! No matter what, there is always pain! I am so exhausted from it all!

how hard it is

How much I've tried to stay palatable to their close minded views.. but it's not possible because I am who I am .. Ive tried to be straight I've tried to be cis and literally couldn't

The fact I have an Emotional Support wolf full breed wolf as an Emotional Support animal and nobody seems to care that she is there for me not there satisfaction they all think wolves make terrible because there not friendly but yet that makes them the best does anyone understand that I posted something like that on my account but as usual I was ignored

I want to be happy to but sometimes it feels better to be sad and hidden rather than out and about being proactive and productive

How hard it is to just stay alive. Not a lot of people know about my problems, I'm not very open, but jesus christ it sucks. None of my friends will ever understand what its like to feel bad every single day and none of my friends understand what its like to be autistic

That I actually can't walk well, and am slowly losing my ability to walk because of my hip and the pain it causes me

It's unfair to hold me to their standards and it hurts

That age doesn't matter when it comes to illnesses or disabilities.

How hard it is to get through each day

Tolerating / maintaining symptoms well doesn't mean we don't actually suffer

That if I look like I'm in pain it's really bad. That putting on a brave face and going to work is exhausting and that sometimes basic tasks feel insurmountable by the end of the day.

What it's like to not feel good every.single.day.

That it's not only constant, it's forever.

That self harm is not a suicide attempt. I do it to stay alive not to kill myself. And that not working doesn't mean I am lazy. It takes as much for me to get out of bed somedays as it does for them to do a full day at the office. Also that I am not deliberately argumentative or nasty or judgemental. I misread people and situations. I am trying so hard to even be here that sometimes I miss things. Don't give up on me.

How my mind works differently

Just how crippling bpd can be and that every day is a fight to stay alive

That i dont like being this way

❤️❤️

how lonely I really am

How on many nights I feel like I am fighting to survive

How much pain I'm actually in, and how sick I actually feel

Why I don't always want to socialize and sit around people. I try to tell them I have a social battery but they don't seem to care at all.

Why I'm so tired all the time as well as sick and having headaches but tbh I don't really know as well

They dont get that im not lying when i say im physically hurting and they make me go somewhere anyways.

A lot of people saying how hard it is, and I’m totally with you - people don’t realize that it’s super hard to deal with chronic conditions. But one thing I haven’t seen mentioned is that it’s okay if I take my meds for the rest of my life. I already have to take insulin for the rest of my life, so why would it be a problem with other medications? I’d rather take medication for the rest of my life and be able to function and feel stable and satisfied, than to not take the meds and fall into executive dysfunction, mania/depression, constant physical pain and fatigue, disorganization, and many more symptoms. I have many people in my life who look at me like I’m crazy when I say I might be on all of these meds forever, or worse they tell me that I can “overcome” the need for these meds. Like no, it’s possible I won’t, and I don’t see it as something to overcome in the first place.

How intersectional all issues are, especially those that exist comorbid in one single body.

That I may not look like I have multiple diagnoses, or physical issues, I still need my service dog and my wheelchair.

I want to be happy too. I want to see my friends and be social again like my old self. I dont want to be isolated and alone. But it feels impossible to be okay when things have gone wrong before.

That looking past my weight, my symptoms are valid!

an 8-5 is easy for them but impossible for me...I never feel completely "normal", and never will. good health days are slowly getting stretched farther apart. you will never know true hopelessness until you realize your progressive disease, that stayed relatively consistent, is getting worse. knowing you will never feel again what it felt to be "normal", to not feel every muscle and bone in your body.

What we don’t get is us female who struggle with severe chronic pain illness that us females who deal with endrometriosis it very painful some days we don’t know how to deal with pain.

That just because I'm young and look healthy dosn't mean I am.

How strong and independent I am

They dont get how hard I try to just exist and live.

They don't get I'm delusional and have problems with awareness and reading people

I can’t just “get up and do it” with my adhd. I simply can’t. I just cannot.

That the school nurse is not gonna be able to help me. I can help her better than she can help me

How hard it is. How it's really so hard to handle. It changed my life. They can forget about my problems but I can't

That im not any less of a person because im sick or in pain all the time

The fact that some of us have a higher pain tolerance than others. And regular Tylenol isn't gonna cut it Linda.(Not an actual person)Give me a break.

They don’t get that that I’m exhausted most of the time. Don’t moan at me for drinking a monster - it’s that or I’m falling asleep before the day ends.

How I long to stop existing.

How tired I feel

Preach! Like, why can't I just be tired? Why do I have to defend being tired, and not wanting to go out? Or the, "you're still sleeping!?" I get it! You're the extrovert, but dumping on me isn't going to suddenly make me a peppy flower.

Alot of people don't get why I'm upset

That sometimes, I don't know why I am upset.

How hard it is for me to do chores or remember important things

How much I struggle to do what they do as a norm, and how much I miss the connection to the Otherworlds which I have never got with the conventional realities.

How if a "normal" person had my symptoms for a week, they'd probably do the bare minimum and rest, yet because I have them all the time for the rest of my life, I have to act like normal and as if nothing's wrong. I find this so unfair.

How much time outside of uni I spend in bed

It's not a choice

It’s not nice to deny or invalidate someone when they express they are struggling.

Living as they do dors NOT cure my depression or ease it in any way. The only way to happiness is to have a safe place to authentically be myself. I don't need to show all of me to everyone but home HAS to be a safe place to be myself. I can coexist with almost anyone who isn't telling me to me different but I really need friends. Isolating me puts this shy extrovert into a deficiency state that is literally painful and causes me to br reactive, desperately trying to find a group of people to chill with. Brooklyn can confirm that I am not noise sensitive.

What it feels like to me, or how I feel about things

That healing takes a really long time and deep wounds leave really bad scars - metaphor for PTSD.

That I’m not just lazy or trying to “work the system” and how much depression and anxiety affect my ability to function. Also that small things can trigger me and I’m not just overreacting and it’s not something I can control yet.

I feel this so hard

That im anxious to eat and leave my house and that i cant just power through it sometimes. Arfid and agarophobia seriously harm my everyday life. I cant even go to school anymore without panicking and im told to suck it up. And that im being overdramatic. I need to calm the fuck down..

Same

I feel like people around me don’t get me. I’ve lived without them for 21 years, and I feel like absolutely no one gets me. I find it extremely difficult to find a friend that completely understands the situations that I go through. Once I find that friend, I would eventually want it to turn into a relationship, if that ever happens.

I'm an adult and sometimes I would like to make a decision for myself.

Just because I'm aware of the symptoms, doesn't mean I can suddenly 'turn it off.'

That the physical pain is debilitating but some days I struggle more with my mental pain than physical.

How we fight our own body and mind every day.

How confused and alone I feel…

Why she's hurtful and then neglectful to situations she's caused

That age has absolutely nothing to do with how you feel inside.

That I am not overdramatic or lazy or a weirdo I am just a little depressed

That good days don't necessarily mean a pain free day... or an issue free day.

That I need to discuss this situation and not feel like I am driving people nuts.

They’ve been living, I’ve been surviving.

My head is constantly on overload. There's a million thoughts going at once and it makes everything else really overwhelming.

I can't force myself to do the seemingly "normal physical activities" everyone else can, because it can put my health at a high risk.

How much of a toll feeling like a burden can take on your mental and physical health.

That even something as little as just existing is completely and utterly exhausting.

that DIETING IS AGONY AND I KNOW WHY YOURE REALLY TELLING ME TO DIET MOM

I'm not "just lazy"

That ignoring me is super destructive to my mental health

That sleep is like liquid gold

Everything that is important and how horribly they treat people.

how I don’t want to get better, I just want to rest. “it gets better” means nothing

How much they hurt me

When I turn down invites to hang out with coworkers. It's not personal! I genuinely have trouble socializing, and it's a boundary to not hang out with coworkers outside of the office. I already spend 40hrs a week with them!

That I get told I couldn't have gone through or can't be going through everything I've told them or that they see. I can't just be normal, my chronic pain, migraines and mental issues and past abuse make it so difficult.

How this anxiety actually makes me feel, what the symptoms actually feel like. The struggle of dealing with it and trying not to give up.

I'm not being lazy, I'm just tired and in pain

Just how much energy it takes to exist or how much it takes keep going when you've been suffering your entire life especially if you've got multiple illnesses

That I know I "could" do so much better, if I wasn't sick. But I am, and I can't *stop* being sick. It's not my fault it takes me longer to do things, I cannot help it. I wish I could.

That I am indeed trying as hard as I can

I have an assistance dog and the amount of time and energy it takes to rely on another being. Wouldn’t have it any other way

That it isn't a phase

It's more about what I don't understand and the fact I need to be honest with myself. The truth hurts a lot and it is scary.

how much of a chore it is to get out of bed every day. I'm not lazy, sometimes I just can't face it

How much it hurts. How real this is. How unavoidable and damaging this is.

How difficult it is to be a 3 sport athlete with depression. Like, everyone thinks I'm doing ok simply because I'm fit and I smile a lot but under it all I'm just trying to be able to wake up every morning and get through the day so I can come home and sleep more

That I hate myself for not being able to do what they do all the time.

That my fatigue is all consuming. I'm not lazy - I'm completely done in. Also that a suicidal person can still appear happy on the outside.

I'm not lazy I'm exhausted and the pain scale is not accurate. my 5 could be someone's 9

How hard it is for me to get up in the morning

That there’s actually something I’m struggling with and I’m not just making it up

Just how painful it is to eat and why I only eat one meal a day. My mom finds every chance she can go criticize me, ridicule me and say how unhealthy I'am for *starving* myself. But it is an excruciating process for me to eat food and deal with the aftermath. I only want to deal with it once, not three times a day. Plus the 1 meal versus 3 has actually worked out great for me health wise in other aspects. 3 meals just aren't for everyone. Still though, she tries to force and push food on me like I can't think for myself. No I don't have an E.D. but I would if I listened to her as she'd be shoving copious amounts of food down my throat just so she didn't have to eat the over indulgence she wants to cook.

That their words destroy me.

That sometimes I can't just push through it

How much I struggle to keep my mask so they don't freak out

That I'm not lazy... I'm not "tired" I'm emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted from doing the things you take for granted every day.

How hard life is with it and how painful it is, calling me lazy

How I really am alive because I don’t want to hurt anyone. I’m always very close to not being here anymore, and the hardest thing is to keep going. It’s so painful to be here. I have things that make me happy, yes, but my depression and anxiety get in the way so much. My PTSD and childhood trauma effect my life too much too. I get paralyzed by all of this and it makes me feel like a failure a lot of the time. I still work full time, but barely feel like i can get through it most of the time if I don’t have a constant distraction for my brain to shut up. I am constantly fighting with myself and my demons. It’s all just a constant war Inside of me. I have family that see me as less than because of my gender identity and sexuality.. and that just makes living even harder.

Unfortunate pretty much everything

That waking up in the night sometimes is just a part of my life now and doesn't need to be regulated with extra stronger drugs

That is me too

How much hip dysplasia hurts and they don't get that I physically can't do certain thing bc of it

How exhausting it really is on a daily basis to deal with this crap!

That trying to find any way to diswade me from being trans is still transphobic and makes me want to jump

Im allowed to feel emotions without people automatically assuming it’s my bipolar disorder acting up again. It’s like I can’t feel anything anymore without my mom automatically assuming the worst

How deeply and genuinely I hate myself

🙏 🙏

How easily I can find myself on the edge just because of obsessive thoughts.

How much I want/need support even when I push them away.

That just because I chose to use a mobility aid I didn’t choose to need it.

How lonely this entire life has been.

That I just want someone to check in on me more than once a month or to give me a good genuine reason not to go through with my plan.

That I don't hate them and I'm not actually a b!¡ch

That I breathe, but that’s about it sometimes I feel

That I don't hate them and that I'm not mean. I just have so much bottled up feelings and go through really bad depression episodes

That I can't live if no one taught me how to live as an adult, just complain what is wrong with me. No one wants to be with a low vib they say.. like this they killing ppl.. They don't get how it is to be sucidal.. To be all alone ALL ur life, just being used. Trying hold on to ppl just to feel horrible pain physically and emotionally.. I could ramble forever..

everything

That they were my whole world and how much it truly hurts me the way they're treating me now.

That everything is 10x harder, even if its a simple task

My bf constantly asks me if I'm tired of being how I am and why I don't change. He doesn't understand the struggle just to function enough everyday.

That I really am trying but it's just difficult

What is behind my smile. I live with chronic pain and I won't let it stop me from living. But it hurts. I just get so tired of hurting.

I'm trying to do what I think is best for me.

How difficult it is to not isolate myself to make their lives easier

That they continue to and choose to misunderstand me. They won’t listen or they don’t care.

They don't get that they say things that trigger me. Like "oh you're eating so and so, I thought you were trying to lose weight"

How being fatigued isn't being tired, it's like you've been unplugged & you physically cannot do things. It's not a few hours missed sleep!!!

Definitely how much pain I go through every day. I want them to understand but at the same time, I'm glad that they don't.

"Can't you just choose to be happy/ more productive/take care of yourself more?"

How much strength it takes to walk out and be able to do basic things.

How much it costs me just to act fine through the work day. I rarely have energy for myself afterwards.

I'm not trying to be difficult, I'm having a difficult time. I wasn't able to read between the lines and took you seriously, i wasn't trying to stir up drama. I'm not being dramatic and exaggerating my experiences, i have heightened emotions. I'm not trying to be so heavy, my life has been heavy for me. I'm not trying to be annoying or disrespect boundaries when I ask for clarity when someone needs space, I just need detailed and consistent communication.

How much I just want to be "normal" (functional, not in pain, mentally and emotionally stable, productive, have normal executive function, not be sick or in pain)

That I'm doing everything I can. Some times a lot, sometimes a little, but its all I have.

How tired I am all the time. That often times it really is impossible for me to do what people think I should do because I do not have enough energy.

How, high my anxiety gets when I'm around a bunch of people and all.I want to do is disappear

They don't understand that due to years of not being diagnosed and helped I now can't tell if I am trying my hardest or not. So now I feel like a failure unless I'm basically committing self harm by working too hard

That i have symptoms i don't understand.

How certain things (words, actions) affect me and my mental and physical health

How I see and understand the world. It seems like I live in a very different world than almost everyone I've ever talked to. I feel so alienated. I don't understand the world that everyone I talk to describes. And it is so freaking hard and hurts

My struggles

That I’m not lying they are

That it's not funny to laugh at tourettes. If I'm laughing you can laugh. But if I look like I'm in pain maybe shut up.

I'm going to the doctor bc I don't feel normal or "ok" so testing me & telling me that everything is "fine" doesn't help. I came to the doctor for help...

that what they're doing is not helping me it's making me worse

Same here. 11 years and I can't do it anymore. Im Tired

I am more uncapable than I make it to be. Its a mask. It’s exhausting.

That just breathing is exhausting.

That I'm still young and figuring stuff out. Getting good grades in school doesn't guarantee my success and doesn't mean I have everything figured out. I'm just trying to enjoy my life while I can and when I can. Tommorow isn't promised and I'm taking it slow but I'm determined to have a good time.

Who I am

They don't get how exhausting it is to get through the day. To fight and see barely any results. To see friends and family disappear because your to much to handle.

sadly I can understand this. On a good day I seem normal and perky. I like that me and wish I could be her all the time. On bad days I'm moving around like an old woman wishing for a break in pain and just trying to figure out the basics. With fall and winter weather the bad outweigh the good, joy. Which is sad but at least I know what to expect if other people don't. But I know just gotta keep chugging away like the little engine that could.

That I'm just trying to talk. I'm not being rude, I just want to understand

that intrusive thoughts arent the quirky, trivial thing that tiktok makes them seem to be

that i cant control the way my brain works. its exhausting for me too. i dont mean to be a burden, i cant help it

I can’t just turn a switch and be healed and happy. I’m trying. I can’t just make depression and anxiety go away with the snap of my fingers.

Everyday hurts to some extent wether it be manageable or unmanageable. The guilt that goes along with not feeling like a normal person is so deep. That you want to do so much more than you body is capable of but due to chronic Illness you can’t… the list goes on and on

Poor city planning affects your health.

How much energy being alive takes sometimes. Im in so much pain so often it's hard

why i dropped out

How difficult it is to keep myself from being an angry person :/.

How much it affects me and how hard I’m trying to get better

Exactly how it hurts all the time and what’s going on in my head but I have become such a good actor . That I don’t let many people see that part of me . I don’t let them know the constant pain I’m in or the racing thoughts in my head or the anxiety and panic in my head.

How I don't know how to express how I feel cause I don't know most of the time 😳

That just because something is easy for them doesn't mean it is easy for me.

Everything

How hard it is for me to "get over it" or "ask for help". Or, better yet, when they tell me that "Oh I don't see what the problem is" I'm trying, I swear, but- I can't do this everyday-

The effort to leave my bed, the effort to do simple everyday things, the effort to be present with others, it's just completely exhausting and gets harder everyday.

The fact that I never have the energy or the motivation to do anything. I just do it because I feel obligated to.

How hard it is for me to talk to people or express my emotions.

I wish people understood that they're not perfect either. That quite possibly their problem in which we can't see, might just be worse than the problems of someone whose you can.

how hard i work to exist. how my brain works. how drastically my mood can switch within a minute. me, i guess.

I just can't stop being anxious 😥

I understand that what I’m thinking isn’t real or actually happening, but it feels real and I’m going to react to it as though it is real on the small chance that it might be.

The pain

How much pain I'm in... On the outside they see the smiles but the inside they can't see the catastrophes. On the outside I look all right on the inside I'm feeling drained exhausted

How EXHAUSTING it is.

Not all disabilities are the same. Even the same disabilities present differently in everyone.

How much harder it is to do things other people do with ease

How hard I try to fit in only to fail miserably

It's so true, it's hard to just exist for a lot of us. My boyfriend is very generous, and he makes plans for us every weekend. We're either going to a concert, a comedy show, a play, or another form of entertainment 2-4 times a weekend. I'm very lucky and I'm not complaining, but sometimes it's hard to physically keep up. And since event tickets are non-refundable I feel compelled to go and pay later (physically).

That anxiety is a natural disorder and that’s it’s okay to have

My mental health problems

Everyday isn't the same Just because a healthy person can get their to do list done everyday dosnt mean a person in pain with daily body issues can follow suit It's literally exhausting

How much physical pain is causing me to become severely depressed and hopeless. It's the your lazy or you know u can do this to lose weight...it makes me cringe and wince.

CW: weight loss/dieting mention What my parents don't get is that YES, my disorder CAN go away with weight loss but weight loss is INSANELY HARD and we are faced with LATE STAGE CAPITALISM and DOOM and I'd rather die having eaten sugary things than been a doggone ascetic my whole life for a SHOT at getting rid of my IIH

That I don't just hate working. That I'm not just lazy and not trying hard enough. That the reason I'm not throwing applications everywhere is because I could generate good work for maybe a week before a symptom flare sent me to the hospital and lost me the job, and I can't handle that happening AGAIN.

Adhd makes me do things I don’t want to do. Not only do I not have total control over my thoughts but I don’t have total control over my actions.

How much it hurts to try so hard to motivate yourself and improve although you are more than capable and have done it before but your subconscious prevents you from doing so due to fear of being judged abd being told you did nothing when in reality you did grow but others don't care or don't see it or they do but they put you down anyways

Why I ever feel so low like especially when I was in a very dark place

How hard I’m trying even when it looks like I’m giving in

That you’re not a friend if you’re only there for the good days.

How much I don't want to be here because of the pain

how difficult it is to function with anxiety: my head starts pounding, i cant think, my entire body goes numb, my chest and heart start hurting immensely. It wont be fixed by telling me to “calm down”

They don't get how much of a battle I have to face every day. That I have to make a conscious decision to continue to work on myself despite how much I want to lay in bed and fade away.

That I’m not trying to be lazy. Activity is just such a mountain climb for me 😔

That I know myself better than they do

its not normal to be this speechless towards them. i wish my mother wasnt so lonely so she wouldn’t project her feelings onto me. i dont like it.

Without coffee I would just sleep the day away.

I just can't magically get over my anxiety. If I could, don't they think I would?

That I work 10x harder just to appear okay.

why i’m so afraid and why i let it bother and hinder me as much as it does. i don’t mean to, it feels as compulsory as breathing

The hallucinations and delusions. That I have no control over episodes. That it is an every second of every day thing. That I don't tell them everything because I don't want to worry them.

That I can never forget all the hateful stuff they say to me because instead of trying to be kind and empathic, it's easier to be hateful

That it is hard for me to not cry after being yelled at once or multiple times. Mainly my dad.

That I can’t please him how he wants and how often he wants. It kills me inside and makes me feel broken. Chromic pain is one of the invisible illnesses that people don’t talk about enough.

How living with extreme anxiety is a constant battle. 😫

The fact that I cannot control or even comprehend my emotions. Everything is such extremes all the times for the smallest of reasons. I do not want to be an angry person but I cannot help it because everything is so overwhelming that it's the only way it comes out.

That I'm not being rude when I don't respond but my brain is running through every possible outcome of how I word what I say and if it will come out offensive or hurtful or selfish and I'm trying to get it right... And by the time I do the conversation had moved on.

Everything, I don't want to do anything ever and it's really hard for me to actually do things and if I don't do it to their 'standards' then I get yelled at so

how quick and how much my feelings change. how i need to change with my feelings. i cant always be flexible and i try to be but sometimes i feel like they move abnormally slow and linger at places just for no reason but to feel like they spent enough time somewhere to make their trip worth it

That even though I can have good days doesn't mean it's always good or that I actually experienced trauma and that I'm not just "making it up" or "it's not that bad"

that I'm exhausted no matter what and it's a struggle to just wake up and sit

How much their words hurt and just how much I love all of them.

That Impact is bigger than Intention, and matters more.

That im sorry and im changing

That I can't explain what's wrong because even I don't know what's wrong. Just that something is wrong.

That I'm not lazy, but just trying to survive takes so much energy that it's nearly impossible to do daily tasks like clean and cook.

Why I get mad when all I ask out of others is to be in the know about things.

They dont get that what they do effects me in so many ways. They're causing so much pain unintentionally but they dont understand why i care

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that some days, i am one motion away from giving up. that the past looks so inviting. that i don't try to upset you, i actually try to do the opposite.

Life shouldn’t be as hard as it is.

That Hypermobility has been with me the whole time, and that i won't be fine

How everyday is a struggle

That my bad moods are almost always due to my health symptoms 😥

How energy consuming being depressed and having social anxiety/anxiety is but also being high functioning with it. Like people don’t understand that everytime I leave my house I have to put on a happy persona how much energy that takes from you. Like I’m working two jobs and in grad school full time, I did this last semester and was burnt out by the end of the semester to the extent I literally couldn’t do anything by the time I was done. I took a month off from work and it took around 3 more months to heal from that. Now I’m only 3 weeks into this school semester and working two jobs and I already feel myself burning out. & my dad just thinks I’m just being lazy by wanting to quit my job and focus on school. and I understand why they see it that way because it’s so hard to even understand myself why it happens. Like I need time, EVEN A DAY, to breathe because it is so overwhelming.

That it's not about "eating less"

That some people just *CAN'T* do things like everyone else. Albeit mental or physical, either just at that point in their lives or always. Just because you can do something or know someone who eventually could, don't press that on everyone you meet. Support and encourage but don't pressure and force.

That my kidney disease and dialysis aren't just a vacation and me being lazy.

How hard it is to get out of bed some days... My pain is constant, so it's a struggle.

Missing important events isn’t something I want to do - I would be there if I could.