Yep it sucks

Lol I definitely had to learn to stop making certain types of jokes because the expressions on people's faces were different than the humorous reaction I was going for lol

yes lol, though I guess I understand the reactions bc its maladaptive to shit on urself even as a joke. as a way to kinda change that behavior, I've been trying to,, sarcastically self-aggrandize,, I guess? like when my stutter gets bad and I'm tripping up on my words I say smthn about how I'm the best public speaker ever and all politicians wish they could be me. and even tho I dont believe it and I still feel stupid, it's made my self esteem a little bit better

I think it's kinda like a combination of making a joke before others can and putting the power in your court as well as desensitizing yourself to the truth 😅🤔

Yeah my mom gets so pissed when I make self harm and suicide jokes, especially related to my own experiences. I can't help it - if I don't laugh, I'll cry