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dragonslayer

643d

so my depression seems to come and go. one month I feel numb on good days and sad on others. Next thing I know I feel mostly ok. even great sometimes. I feel confident (real confident since I fake most of the time) motivated and I try to complete goals. I work on projects and want to be social. while I'm sad/numb I just want to stay at home, sometimes I just stay in my room and sleep in a lot. I have had several times where I sleep through alarms but that's probably a different problem. when I'm in my lows I resort to self harm and feel very insecure. I don't dress as good, use less makeup and while I still can try to put in effort I just never feel ok. sometimes it doesn't feel like depression until I realize I don't care about anything and the only emotion I do feel is anger. I'm in that right now. it's been a long time since I've felt confident and good. is this normal?

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    • iwgtfid_e

      643d

      You should talk to a doctor about bipolar disorder. I have it and it's a lot like that.

    • DariaFae

      643d

      Yes very true sounds like bi polar. It's pretty much the highs and lows are more extreme which sounds like you might have. Not bad and quite ok. Just probably should look into a therapist and/or psychologist if the lows feels as if an issue affecting your life. It is bad for your health to be down for long and I'm feeling with this right now. Finishing a doctor is not easy. Got one medication recently that I think is actually helping in only a few days for my migraines and side effects of anxiety, propranolol. Good luck on your journey. The beginning of any journey is to recognize the issues affecting you and wanting to do something to make your life better. You are on the right track and doing amazing. Keep your head up and good luck. 💕

      • dragonslayer

        643d

        @DariaFae thanks that was super helpful. I may try to find a doctor since bipolar does run in my family.

    • karlielewis93

      643d

      My depression can go weeks on end

    • mearbearz

      643d

      Honestly depression be that way normally. Maybe I’m speaking for myself but I’ve never seen depression go in a way where it makes you sad or numb 24/7. You have okay weeks sometimes, you have bad weeks sometimes, and then there are some weeks where you feel happy and great. I see depression as more of a thing that overshadows you some days and others hides when you find the sun for a fleeting moment.

    • iwgtfid_e

      643d

      You should talk to a doctor about bipolar disorder. I have it and it's a lot like that.

      • dragonslayer

        643d

        @iwgtfid_e maybe I will bipolar disorder does run in my family

    • SourLemons

      643d

      i guess "normal" is a bit dependent on whether you mean within the context of experiencing depression. if so, then maybe, yeah. it's a vicious cycle of not feeling great, and ending up powerless to do anything about it causing you to feel even worse, and repeat. i recently had a really bad spell of just being extremely angry and irritated at everything for a whole day. it felt so wrong but i couldn't help it in the moment. perhaps i can relate a bit to the cycles you have, too. your feelings are very real, and though they may wildly fluctuate, you're still a tangible and worthwhile person. depression may take over occasionally, but you are more than your mental health struggles. more than your scars, than your anger, than your waves of changing emotions. i'd like to encourage you to be a lil gentle and patient with yourself each day. depression is hard. while going through depression, you deserve that kindness, even from yourself. i'll be cheering for you from far away, too. sending hugs; take care of yourself ♡

      • reading.baker

        643d

        @SourLemons very well said.❤️

    • reading.baker

      643d

      Maybe not normal, but, they are your feelings. I know you said you only feel like being social when you are up but have you reached out when you are down? I don't reach out to people when I am up or down.

      • dragonslayer

        643d

        @reading.baker I don't like to talk about it mostly so when I'm social I find myself running for student council president or something

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