Struggling with Unemployment and Health Issues

This is long, but a complex situation: I’m almost 24 and unemployed. I graduated college in 2021 and started having health issues following the 💉on top of GAD and major depression. This includes chronic fatigue, brain fog, no energy, dry mouth, inflammation, chronic pain, food intolerances, dizziness, and a high heart rate that would go up to 190. I think I have POTS, MCAS, and a severe gluten intolerance. Bc of this I chose to do an online program to build my skills before starting a job and I finished that last June. I live with my mom and honestly have only applied to a few jobs since then and it’s been a year. I had 2 interviews but didn’t get the jobs. My HR is controlled now with meds but other symptoms are the same. My mom asks me about the job search and I lie and say it’s going okay because every time I have trouble doing something or feel bad i’m either making an excuse or it becomes about how hard her life is (burnout, trauma, and her own health issues). I can’t fail or feel. Now it seems like I have nothing to show for applying for a year when i’ve barely tried and would’ve had something by now if I applied everyday. The market is so tough now, i’ve seen people say they still can’t find anything after 8 months, and i’m so scared of interviews. Who knows how long it will take? Today she was grilling me about it and how I need to start applying for jobs not related to my field, that I never have motivation, am in my room all day, and she doesn’t even know what i’m doing. In her words “everyone feels sick” but you just need to do what you have to. I hate myself for still being dependent at my age and like a burden. I’ve been a complete waste of space and it’s so embarrassing. It’s not that I don’t care or that im lazy, I just feel so run down and tired that I can’t prioritize things and get distracted. I know I messed up but I think I deserve some empathy. I already hate myself and am being ridiculed and pressured on top of that, making it harder to function. I feel like I don’t even deserve to eat and so frustrated. I’ve always had zero motivation but as a perfectionist I went from being a 4.0 student and excelling at part time jobs to this. I managed to get myself to clean the house weekly, exercise, and go for a walk daily but I can’t do anything else productive. I feel like it’s only been a few months since my program and I’m either watching tv, laying down, or fixated on non toxic healing research. I know I need to get tested for ADHD and autism, see a holistic dr, eat more, and get supplements to help myself but everything’s on pause until I find a job. But I can’t focus on anything because I need my health to get better first! I need a job to get more food for my intolerances and have energy. I hate to wait on her to go to the store when she never wants to go and waits too long. I know things are expensive now and she can’t afford as much but I’m underweight and need to eat more. I could use some of my savings but i’ll get yelled at for that. It’s my money though, so I don’t know why I even care. I’m completely stuck and don’t know how i’ll get through this.