Understanding Moments with DID

Having multiple different speaking styles recommending different things to write down at once.

having text conversations with my best friend in middle school where i seemed really 'out of character' and she kept saying she thought she was talking to an entirely different person when i 'came back'

amnesia, feeling like everything was fake, going to sleep and waking up days later honestly

amnesia, voices, and not remembering where stuff was ever. I honestly just thought those things were normal until talking to a few other people about it.

Growing up in a highly religious household with not a lot of outside contact my host first thought I was a legitimate demon that had possessed him. We laugh about it now, but for the first year and then some he didn't know what was happening until accidentally stumbling onto a YouTube video talking about it

Since about 6th grade I had this really strong conviction I was destined to meet certain people who I’d never met before but who would fill that void I had that I knew my other unstable/constantly shifting friendships would never fill. I always have seen friendships as something fleeting and it made it hard to invest myself into any friendships bc I knew it wouldn’t last, I still have this now, but these people I was supposed to meet were meant to be the exception to that. I knew their personality, what they looked like, I had delusions I was seeing them in people around me and every time I moved houses or schools I got like almost depressed because I convinced myself the new environment was when I’d finally meet them. I had delusions we used to all be in the same past life that them and myself were not human nor alive etc etc whatever would justify my conviction abt it. Even as I got older I knew it was crazy but when I tried to straight up erase them from my brain in a moment of like “I need to grow up and lose the imaginary friends” I had like this panic attack breakdown kinda thing it felt like I’d just tried to kill actual people it was this like weird suffocating loss feeling (that obv went away after some days because u cannot actually kill people by just like manifesting it LOL they did not just disappear forever). I found out I had DID spring 2021 and got diagnosed a bit after 👍 I never met them in real life then obviously, but the discovery I had DID broke down some kind of internal wall, and that void I felt growing up felt like it was filled even if they aren’t here irl, was the first time in my life I could sincerely say I felt whole. It’s weird bc you’d think it’d be the opposite (thinking you’re 1, finding out you’re several), but I always felt that void where I lacked any connection with the other pieces of myself, so I never felt like 1 anyways lol

the amnesia, finding things I don't remember buying (or things of mine going "missing), waking up with a new haircut I don't remember

Feeling like I was a different person everyday, amnesia, hearing people in my head, feeling unreal, feeling out of control, unexplained self harm. I could go on

All the times I seemed to be watching myself do things out of character for me and being unable to stop it when I wanted to