Struggling with Understanding My Emotions

I get like this when I am really depressed. I have used bottling up my emotions as a coping mechanism from a young age. I still do it when things are too much or when I just no longer have the energy to be emotional. People think I am cold and that I don't feel things but that's not true. It's just sometimes too exhausting to let other people see it.

🙏🏻for you. That sounds like it’s very difficult to deal with.

It sounds like you're describing Alexithymia, which I've heard a Clinical Psychologist who has extensive experience with autism talk about. He said it is a commonly occurring sub-clinical trait/condition alongside autism (and other disorders) and it translates as "a lack of emotional awareness or, more specifically, difficulty in identifying and describing feelings" (ie. having no words for emotions).

Sometimes it's very complicated for me because emotions are something I feel strongly

I go through this too. Not actually sure when or why mine pops up but I feel like that most of the time now. Like I'll know I'm happy but sometimes i dont feel it. Like it's routine & going through the motions. Not fresh if that makes sense

I feel like this when I'm approaching/in the midst of burnout. I just don't have the spoons to "read" people or show much emotion myself.