Black and white thinking and unsafe behaviors like having unprotected s** with muti or different men/people in short amount of time . It's a love hate relationship with anything/anyone you do . Feeling of abandonedment and hopeless that you can't do the right thing to please anyone . And when you do connect to someone or someone's it makes it hard for you to stay in that relationship cause one min you want them so bad then your mind changes it's mind. I have other disorders but I was first diagnosed BPD when I was 12 . Now I'm 25 and with my other diagnosiss and on alot of meds I still have problems today . Don't overthink is my advice to you . It will bring things into fruitation . ✌️

For bpd there’s a lot. For me personally it’s what you said abandonment and rage episodes. But people I know that also have bpd start doing risk taking behaviors such as illicit drugs, unprotected sex and more. 💕

I was diagnosed when I was 21 years old and now I'm almost 36. In day to day life for me it's different everyday. Some days I feel this void in me that nothing has ever nor will ever fill. I still self harm though not like I was when I was younger. As I've gotten older I'm not as impulsive. Though I can still behave like a child when I feel "triggered". When I was first diagnosed I didn't take it seriously at all. I do regret waiting 11 years to want and get treatment. It does get better.

BPD has taught me to be more patient with myself and others, life skills like concentration, perseverance, and communication. It did take time for me to accept the diagnosis. I thought I would be labeled for life, people wouldn't want to be my friend, I could never find a job, etc. But honestly, it turned out to be the complete opposite because of what I learned. You can always turn your "weaknesses" into strengths. It does take time and for me, therapy and medication, but I truly believe that you will find that most times, the positives of both BPD and just life in general will outweigh the negatives.💚

Feel free to DM me if you want to talk more.

I'm also 19! I don't remember when I was diagnosed exactly. BPD has me feeling like I'm a God to the most vile despicable creature alive, and more so the latter. The uncontrollable anger and the consciousness to how crazy you're acting with no stopping it is the most poignant to me