I'm doing okay. My brother and I had a bad argument yesterday and we both ended up crying. I rarely see him cry and it was because of something I said. We are so close and I just want us to be cool now. He said things and I said things but, I hate fighting with him. We never really argue. I already said I was sorry. Just giving him space now.

I send a very carefully worded email and got back a response that says “I’m not 100% sure what the concern is” so that didn’t feel very good. Now i have to decide whether to try to reschedule this appointment and potentially waste his time if there’s no available slot. I’m just overly concerned with getting him to like me when he has no reason to like or dislike me he’s just an advisor! Plus I should be working on these study abroad forms during this time because this is my only alone time this whole fall break and i only have until noon and then i have to go back to my ex-boyfriends house and spend a couple nights there. I’m excited to go abroad but i have to take a test in order to take classes in spanish and I really don’t think my spanish is good enough. Honestly if i can’t take the classes i want to take id rather wait to study abroad in the fall! Ugh i hate anxiety

Same old same old how are you feeling snowflake?

😵‍💫😬😮‍💨I wrote out a whole flippin novel about my actual feelings toward my best friend... did I actually send it to her? Um no. That stuff is still in my journal app, just festering. 😖🙈😖🙈