Surviving Sexual Assault: My Story

csa rape i know it’s my fault for getting raped and no one can change my mind. the first time i was 4. i didn’t fight, didn’t avoid, didn’t run. i was quiet and reclusive, an easy target. that person continued raping and sexually abusing me till i was 6-7. then i was sexually assaulted when i was 7 ish by a teenager. didn’t know how to say stop or no. sexually assaulted when i was 11. then raped by a friend when i was 12. sexually assaulted again when i was 15. even when i did say no during these times, they didn’t stop. and i didn’t push. if i had left the situation, been more forceful or something it wouldn’t have happened. one time, okay, but 5 different people? obviously there’s something wrong with me.