Struggling with my therapist and finances

Please try to change therapists. I was stuck with a therapist who was very condescending and didn't understand panic disorder or agoraphobia at all. I thought i was doing something wrong or that I was weak. After a year, she gave up on me and said there's nothing more she can do and maybe there's something else wrong with me. I found a different therapist through 365counseling.com and the difference is night and day. Ive gotten further in a few weeks with her than I did in a year with the other. You are the customer, you pay them whether its insurance or out of pocket or both. Make sure you're getting what YOU need from it.

You need to assert your personal boundaries and advocate louder if they aren't listening to you. People tend to downplay many things associated with mental illness and this seems like a perfect example. You're not being taken seriously. If you boldly stand up for yourself they really won't have any choice but to comply. It seems to me their control over you is your own self doubt. You should NEVER doubt yourself when it comes to any aspect of your health because nobody knows your body the way you do.

If you don't feel that he is right for you he probably isn't. He might specialize in ptsd but that could mean anything. Maybe he specializes in only military men, maybe he specializes with ptsd in general but not your personal reaction to it. If he makes you feel like you can't trust yourself and doesn't correct it then he's not right. It's very common to get someone unfit for your specific needs even in specialist situations. Because for them it's a job, and for you it's your life and happiness. If he isn't helping you learn about yourself or get anywhere, maybe a one step forward two steps back situation, then he's not worth it. As horrible as it is it's better to have no therapist than one that doesn't fit your needs.