Struggling with the Monster Inside

The monster has gotten way too strong. I use to write, but now when I turn on the computer, the monster just puts me to sleep. I’m never tired and I sleep all the time. I hate it. I stopped taking my meds for 48hours. Not because I’m trying to stay off them, but because my meds make my tastebuds all funny and I hate how my favorite foods taste when I’m on them. If I can go 72hrs, I’ll be able to drink a real Coke without it tasting like battery acid. It tastes sooooooo good! Too bad it’s a dangerous game to be playing. The monster is gonna kick my ass even harder for it…