Struggling with Self-Doubt and Exhaustion

Yes, especially because I experience a lot of repression of my memories. Do know that thinking these things is actually a symptom of trauma and several mental disorders, if that helps you feel more validated.

Anxiety and depression easily does that to me all the time, and it doesn’t help that growing up with a narcissistic mother makes it worse. I found myself thinking a lot about this sort of thing after I was sexually assaulted as well but it is not anyones fault or something they should feel guilt or shame about

what helps me combat these feelings is to look at is as if it was your best friend or favorite person in the world coming to you and telling you this stuff, what advice would you give them?

i feel the exact same way, its hard not to dwell and think maybe my abusers were right and it was my fault all along. you’re not alone in feeling that way ❤️

I️ feel that way all the time. I️ think a lot of it stems from all of the doctors that treat us like malingerers. I️ try to remember that just like the rest of my intrusive thoughts, these aren’t true. Multiple specialists have diagnosed me repeatedly, and THAT’S what’s real. The thoughts I️ have doubting myself are just like the thoughts I️ have that everyone hates me. It comes from a place of trauma, not reality. I️ found this really cute app called Finch that gives you a little self care cartoon pet and you send them off on adventures and fill out prompts and track your moods to give them energy, and when they come back they ask you a question and the advice you give them helps shape their personality. It’s helped me learn how to care for myself and cut myself some slack, and also allows you to go back and read what you’ve written and reflect on what happened that day that made you feel that way. I️ highly recommend it! ❤️

yes, always. i try to remind myself that all of my feelings are valid, even if its so hard sometimes.. i dont know what to do about it but i understand completely what you mean<3

This is totally me. I constantly think that I'm making up my anxiety and depression to get attention and I start doubting my feelings. I still don't know how to overcome this, but breathing exercises and yoga to relax help a lot to calm the mind ♥️