Struggling with PTSD, need advice

Sorry that's supposed to say even when I wasn't specifically thinking about my trauma

My ptsd started as a child and I've had more trauma added to it throughout my life, in my late 30s now and I'm just now realizing that even when I was specifically thinking about my trauma it's been attached to everything, the way I react to things, the way I see myself, the relationships I keep, and it just goes on. when I can't stop thinking about my pain and my mind is stressing over everything I can't get out of it I try to write things out, blast music in my ears while cleaning or working out, breathing exercises and recently trying to spend more time in the mirror forcing positive thoughts and meditation.. still very new but I find that when you have to focus on something that doesn't come easy your mind tends to pull away from the hamster wheel of thought and that's good even for a few mins of giving your mind a break from the high alert it's in when you are running on anxiety and negative thoughts.

Yes and no. Sometimes i obsess like today and think "this isnt fair" and other times i dont care

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I just do things that make me happy/distracted, music is the best distraction, I follow through with music,movies,taking my dogs on walks, homework, going to parties and just taking care of myself, or read a book. Do things that get u distracted, showers are an option too. And always be positive.

Mine was really bad a year ago, and what I did was I would keep myself super busy for a few days, and have one day set aside where I would do nothing but feel my PTSD. Idk how to explain it better. It was a day where I allowed myself to be a mess. I would cry basically all day, write a lot, take a bath, etc... It was a day where i would work through things, and on the other days i would pretend i could still be a human. Giving it time has allowed me to learn how to normalize things in my life, accept a new normal, and manage my symptoms day to day instead of having to be completely out of commission for 1-3 days a week. I guess I had to change my self-expectations, because I wasn't the same me, and I had to give myself permission to not be okay for a while until my body could process more.