Struggling with OCD and Cleaning

Hey all, I was wondering if anyone would like to chat if they relate to any of this. I was just recently diagnosed with OCD, my biggest problem is cleanliness for myself. I constantly clean at work and other places and get anxious when I feel it isn't done right, but for some reason it's IMPOSSIBLE for me to clean even a little bit for myself. i love my work environment because everything's done a certain way and I can keep it that way. my apartment is a mess. everywhere, it's awful. and I get so anxious and even cry cause I feel like I need to do so much but I can't do it. I feel as if I can't get started on one area until another area has been done, but oh I can't do that area until I get a thing for this other area of my apartment and so on. I feel like such a failure and I can't do anything right yet I get so anxious and the idea of doing anything makes me have a panic attack cause I can't do it right. I feel as if it's hard to explain and specific but if anyone relates I would love to hear from you. I never knew that ocd was related to this because I always associated ocd with being a "clean freak" 100% of the time such as my father with severe ocd.