omg i def know what you’re talking about. it’s hard to do anything when all of the days are so similar and blend together maybe try setting small goals for yourself? like take it one day at a time, and once your motivation becomes consistent you can think about bigger things this depends on the type of person you are but having a designated studying area helps a lot for me it’s my university’s library i cannot do anything at home haha

I convince myself to do one thing that feels manageable. Then I see how I feel and go from there. If I need a break or rest, then I do that. If I feel up to another thing, the do that.

Honestly for many years my kids and now my grandchildren are the only reason I get out of this bed I’ve thought many times about killing myself or purposely overdosing. The thing is I know that would cause my kids and grandchildren pain. How could they ever truly believe how much I love them, if I would purposely and willfully cause them that much pain. I just don’t have it in me to cause them pain. I’ve spent my whole life trying to protect them from it. It would leave me a total and complete liar for a legacy.