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mia_lillliana

663d

Tw- depression ptsd anxiety i honestly feel so unworthy of life, im so tired of feeling this constant depersonalization derealization and anxiety every day. i dont leave my bed because of the anxiety and constant tiredness even though i sleep good. i go for maybe 1 walk a day if that and just go straight back to laying in bed ALL day not exaggerating. i lay in bed only getting up for the bathroom. no socializing or anything im constantly so tired. feeling like this is even worse waking up and knowing my day is going to be exactly like the last. wondering what im gonna have a panic attack about today. i find absolutely no joy in anything at all. nothing seems to make me happy i havent felt that emotion and had a laugh that was real in a long time. the only emotions i feel is sadness anger and anxiety, im so tired of fighting i dont know what im fighting for really. i have ptsd bpd depersonalization derealization health anxiety social anxiety depression i even get anxiety about having anxiety. im so tired guys. so tired. and with my 1 year trauma coming next week im even worse.

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    • MilanB

      656d

      @Mee_Nuancei I want to communicate with you. I feel the same and I’m reaching out. 831-239-8455 my cell phone. Text

    • Mee_Nuancei

      662d

      TW - Suicide it absolutely sucks living like this, not really seeing your purpose in life and just existing. it hurts more cuz you want help but no one’s willing to go the extra mile for you, while also seeing everyone pass you by in life. im currently staying with someone rn who doesn’t appreciate the fact that i lay on the couch all day - although i do clean behind myself - while also being aware of my mental illnesses. everyday i wake up it’s the same and as everyday passes i get more and more eager to kms. as a spiritual being it makes things worse because it’s true mindset is everything and when that’s compromised literally every other aspect of you life is as well. i just ponder on what could be the reasoning to all of this. it’s just SO HARD because all i have is God, my sister, my clothes and miscellaneous. i don’t have a car, no job, no source of income, no place of my own, barely any food, i dont sleep that well, it’s hot where i stay and the fans barely help and i sweat profusely bcuz of it, i have no hope, and the list GOES ONNN… but at the end of the day somehow i have unconditional and exceeded love for God, humankind and everything in between, i not an envious person although i am annoyed because i have dreams and ambitions too that only get harder to reach as the days go by. and the “cherry on top” of it all mental health care and health care in general are extremely expensive 😀

      • MilanB

        656d

        @Mee_Nuancei I want to communicate with you. I feel the same and I’m reaching out. 831-239-8455 my cell phone. Text

    • sospuddles

      662d

      Im feeling the same way right now. What sometimes helps is making my emotions tangible…Writing down my feelings, and burning the paper. If i am angry or frustrated, I can eat something spicy to reflect that emotion. It helps decrease my depersonalization.

    • lai

      662d

      i’m really sorry that you’re feeling like that. dealing w cycles of anxiety and depression is exhausting!! you are doing a fantastic job just by existing, im very proud of u for hanging in there! i hope there is someone you can talk to about all of this, and that you seek out therapy! for me, medication and dbt completely changed my life and my relationship with my anxiety. again, you are doing such a good job just by posting this here to reach out for help!

    • Invisible

      662d

      I could have written that, but I do not take a walk daily or suffer with bp. My anxiety, depression, loneliness, and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome have me tied to my bed on a daily basis. It is so freaking frustrating!!

    • SunshineJaz

      662d

      💕 💕 are you my anxiety twin ? I’m going through exactly the same thing My bed is my friend bff to be honest it’s not a great thing or something to brag about but I can say I’m so happy I’m not alone in this

    • FieryRedhead

      662d

      I'm so sorry you are going through this but just know you are not alone. If you want to talk let me know

    • MilanB

      663d

      Do you want to be acquainted ?

    • Lifestar

      663d

      Omg we're so much alike in a lot of ways, but I believe we can get through this idk how yet, but I refuse to believe I gotta live out the rest of my life like this, I just can't accept that I don't like me, am lonely, sad, in pain constantly, and all the negative things that come with this life, if you ever want to talk, I'm here, u just know there's better, it's got to be...

    • Samantha99

      663d

      ❤️ is all I can say, I pray that God alleviates your pain soon.

    • ProjectSys

      663d

      i know how you feel in some parts, one thing ive felt that helps is doing at least one new/extra thing everyday. no matter how small. for some examples: make some food with a spice you dont regularly use, walk to somewhere different like the library (u dont have to do anything there/elsewhere, just a change of scenery can help), make your bed before laying back down, spray some perfume/cologne/air freshener in your room, listen to a song you haven't heard in a while, etc.! whatever you decide to do is up to you, but changing up your space and routine just a little can help boost you up a bit. keep on going, you're doing the best you can and that's valid 💜

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