Struggling with Impulsive Spending Habits

I don't like adrenaline just presents lol. I didn't get any real presents since my young teens if not before my teens really. My life just sucks. I've never had anyone get me anything. Even one ex rewrapped a gift I have him and gave it back to me. I just long for love and I can't find it anywhere so I do my best to make it, to make me happy, cause deep down I feel like I can't ever really be happy.

It seems like you have traded one addiction to another. You went from a drug high to a adrenaline high. It is very common that people do this.

I don't have nor want a therapist. And have a heck of a time finding a psychologist

I am a spender, i have automatic deposit going into two different bank, one back I do not haveba debit card for, therefore I have to think about why I need the money, and the other is for weekly bills and food. Its hard but now I have a little savings , it was worth it.

Start putting money away and tell yourself this is being saved give yourself a limit on what you can spend. Good you stopped one addiction unfortunately you replaced it. I would suggest working on why you started your addictions with your therapist so you can over come your addictions properly. Good luck, you can do it

I'm working on similar as well, and so far it's a losing battle. I seem to think if I get the right item suddenly some part of my life will be easier. Also I spent an ugly amount of money playing a stupid mobile app game over the last 3 weeks and I'm so disgusted with myself.