I don’t know if I should phrase this as a question or just a rant, I feel torn about this issue. I recently realized that I have become hypomanic, I have a psychiatry appointment in a week and I am arguing with myself about talking about it. If I say I’m getting (hypo) manic symptoms, I don’t want her to change the medication because the only time I can feel happiness or even actually good at all is when I am hypomanic. I know it’s irresponsible and selfish to basically lie about it, I know it’s bad, but, I mean, it’s not that bad, like my sleep and eating is fine. I even overslept last night. I feel so desperately attached to this, it’s not all great, like it always sucks in some ways, but oh my god I haven’t felt happy at all in so long, and I can be social which I have such massive problems with. I just don’t want to stop feeling positive about life or just fcking feel good or happy about fcking anything. Is it necessary that I tell my doctor, or is it ok to keep it to myself if it’s not harming me or my life?