Struggling with Gender Dysphoria

I get that. I call myself nonbinary female. I struggle with my body a lot and cant wait to get top surgery. I dont want to transition. I do wonder about low doses of T sometimes, but i think im ok without it.

Hey. I feel you. I didn't want to transition either and then decided I wanted my body to conform more to how I felt about myself. I'm FTN. It's been 4 years of low dose T. And the longer it's been the more I felt authentically me. I love myself more and I love my body, which I could never say before. (I just had top surgery). I wish you all the best in your gender journey. Whatever you decide, above all be kind to yourself.

Your preference not to transition is totally valid. I don't mean at all to pressure you into transitioning, but I did feel a little similarly before taking hormone replacement therapy for my dysphoria (I'm ftn). I didn't think hormones would help much, but it literally changed my life to the point where I was finally able to do my school work consistently after 2 years of basically doing nothing for school. To be honest, this isn't everyone's story. I hear some people lose their gender dysphoria after they reach adulthood. Some people choose not to transition and instead use other ways to cope. I don't know what you're planning to do later on, but I wish you the best of luck, and I hope my own story helps in some way.