Struggling with an Eating Disorder: Is Recovery Possible?

You are not alone. I reached a relatively healthy weight after being medically treated, but my psychological pain has yet to be addressed and has yet to cease. Anorexia is all mental, and your physical body does not replicate what you may be suffering through internally. You deserve help and acknowledgement no matter what

Just because you've gotten back to a healthy weight doesn't mean it's gone. It's something that sticks with you for ages, and never really goes away in my experience. And I know it gets harder when gaining weight because it goes against what the disorder wants. But the disorder is wrong

I choose to look at my anorexia as a chronic illness. It's not something you heal from in a linear way. It takes constant fighting every day, but I promise you it does get easier. The biggest thing for me has been learning to speak up. If you can, try to be honest with the people close to you about how you're feeling. If you feel particularly bad or triggered by something, be sure to speak up! Eating disorders are mental disorders. They stay there with you, in your head, where things are negative and emotional. It feeds off of that! If you are able to speak what you are feeling out loud (especially with people who love and care for you) it often diminishes as you counter it with logical thinking. I hope this was helpful in some way. Just remember to cut yourself some slack. It's not as easy as saying, "I want to heal," when your brain is the problem. You have to consistently make choices every day that go against what your brain tells you will make you happy, and so many people don't understand what a long and hard journey it can be.