Struggling with Dissociation in Public

I dissociate a lottt mainly out in public and even around friends, I’ve been doing it for a really long time but I never really knew what is I just thought sun was wrong with me,,, well I still do buttt I actually feel better knowing what it is now, but it makes me sad sumtimes cus I feel like I can’t be in the moment and enjoy what’s going on around me it just feels like a dream,, I try so hard to get out of it so I can experience what I’m doing but it never really works and I kinda feel like I miss out.