Struggling with Difficult Daughter and Suicidal Thoughts

So I’m having some difficulty with my oldest daughter, whom I live with. Every time I help out around the house worked with the children. She is totally rude to me and unthankful for all I do. she speaks to me in a demeanor that is hurtful, and every time she does I literally want to hurt myself. I am always on guard because I suffer from suicidal thoughts, my whole life, and she knows it. For a while I have been stuck living with her, did not have any place else to go. But within the next two months, I will be moving out. I don’t know if I’m going to have a relationship with her afterwards. I don’t think she wants to. It weighs heavy on my heart every day.