i didn’t realize until today that my depression is not getting better like i thought. it’s just presenting differently. i’m not really feeling the sad my life sucks depression. i just don’t have any motivation for anything. i don’t have energy for anything. i love my job but cry every morning at the thought of having to get out of bed and work 9+ hours. i’ve called out too often in the past because i just need a few more hours of sleep to not feel dead and sick all day. i feel like my boyfriend is going to break up with me because i just don’t have the energy to be a good girlfriend anymore. the sadness was easier because at least i could cry it out and move on or just hold it in. now everything is so exhausting i feel like i’m just running myself into the ground.