Struggling with Depression and Anxiety

I honestly don’t see the point in living at all (I won’t do anything harmful). Major depression and severe anxiety for 8 years now. Physical health issues that keep worsening. Not a single friend and can’t connect with anyone or just get annoyed by people. No close family and I live with my mom who caused a lot of trauma from emotional and verbal abuse. Feel like I don’t know how to do anything. Graduated college and unemployed but no motivation at all and can’t focus on a single task. It’s been a year and I’ve only applied to a few jobs. I hate feeling lazy and like I can’t do anything no matter how much I try. What’s the point of life if there’s nothing positive?