Struggling with Consistency and Motivation

I think I’ve gone through this before but I’m not diagnosed with ADHD so I might not provide the support you need. But one of the things that helped me was a therapist, and I ask myself “what do I really really want?”

It truly is incredibly hard! Like, I want to workout, be able to do the splits, learn to speak basic Norwegian, read up on scientific papers... These are All things I desire to do! But, I try & try, feeling nothing but devoid. I keep bulldozing through, hoping eventually I'll feel a hint of satisfaction & motivation... Although, it hasn't seem to come... N' it's like, "How am I supposed to improve my mental status, if what I'd like to be doing feels null?" It's so hard to explain, because it's contrary.