Struggling with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome: Need Help!

Honestly, nothing helps my fatigue except making sure I rest. I have to carefully manage my energy output (pacing) -- go to bed early, don't overcommit/overbook myself, don't "push through it" when I'm feeling fatigued. I also have systemic inflammation that's connected to it, and Diclofenac has helped with that a lot.

Tldr: Getting energy for me has been soley about positive reinforcement and trigger identification. I struggle with it, too. Going for a walk makes me feel sort of cloudy and glassy when other people seem totally with it. I used to give myself points. Essentially I was tricking my brain into seeing the ‘bright side’. So I could see that I didn’t eat breakfast or lunch. And I’d feel confused, sad, and disappointed in myself. But I’d give myself a point for the granola bar I ate half of. Despite the thoughts and feelings I was having, my brain was still being tricked into at least acknowledging in some degree that I got a point that day. This was my first big step into learning how to replace the love I wasn’t getting from other people. This has helped reduce the power of many of the triggers that drain my energy. I did it up until I was running 3 times a week and eating at least 1 meal a day for about 2 months. I’m picking back up again after 2 months of confusion. When I go backwards, I still try to acknowledge what I did right. It doesn’t matter how far back I am, I did things right. It’s just that I deserve to want and fight for good consequences. When I smoke weed, I noticed I lose interest in functioning like that. It lasts for about 24 hours after smoking, especially if I’m smoking for multiple days at a time. They say dopamine isn’t the reward, it’s the drive and desire to have something, which is drained out of your system for a while when you hijack it. I always spend the first half of the day wondering why I’m being ‘lazy’, ‘unappreciative’ and ‘useless’. (However, on a ‘trigger’ day, weed helps me function and bypass depressive episodes. I just have to be wise about it.) Oftentimes, I remember it was just a trigger. I’ve learned to identify triggers. I tend to have delayed reactions, so if I breakup with someone, or if I lose a family member, or who knows what, I tend to not realize I’m grieving until a long time later. I’ll be totally fine and normal when and while it happens, and I’ll handle the situation like a queen, but then I’ll wonder why I can’t develop relationships, or wonder why I’m not eating, or wonder why I’m doing this or that. Hence, everything is exhausting because I’m functioning ‘normally’ in a headspace that doesn’t ever feel rewarded by normal behavior. So my advice, recognize where you’re hurting. Reward yourself for things that are good for you, and recognize when something isn’t a reward, even if you think it should be. Then, rinse and repeat. Just train your brain to release dopamine. Your brain is a great actress, just keep going.