Struggling with Christmas Season: Feeling Left Out and Depressed

I’m so glad that Christmas is over with. I when through a hard time with the Christmas season. That it didn’t feel like it at all to . My family felt like it was saying to me that I made it that way . And the one of my meditcion was not working out for me for the most part. And I felt that I was not part of all the people having a great time. And left out of the conversation and the whole fun of it all. Has anyone else felt that way when it is that time of the year? I hate this time of the years I wish we didn’t have this at all. I was going through big time depression and anxiety. I wish this was over and done with for good.